Out of Control Control Freak

In my last post, I shared that I recently lost my job. This has been an interesting experience for me. For the first time since I was 17 I find myself without a job. And to tell the truth, I’m scared. You see, I’m a control freak. Not only do I want to know what’s going on, I want to be the one directing it.
You’d think as a pastor and student of theology I’d know better, right? I can’t even understand how I am able to form the thoughts that I’m trying to communicate to you as I type. How can I possibly expect to direct the circumstances in which I find myself?

Yet, I think I can.

And, so do you.

As I ponder the direction my life is taking, I’m learning a new way to trust God. It’s a great experience too. It’s incredibly stressful trying to control things I can’t understand. In my current situation, I am acutely aware of my lack of ability to control things. I’m acutely aware of my need to get out of God’s way and trust him. I’m acutely aware of the freedom that this brings.

I’m still working hard looking for work. I’m working hard at trying to discern the direction that God wants me to move. But, it’s not stressful. I’m relaxed and at peace. I don’t know the situation in which you find yourself. But, I do know that it’s too big for you to handle. Yet, it’s not too big for God to handle.
So, take a deep breath, close your eyes, and let go. Stop trying to take control away from God. Instead, follow God’s guidance and go where he leads you.